Poetry

Wireless
anyway, i keep thinking about the old laptop we passed around after school,
blue light pooling over our faces like a second puberty—hot,
cords under your desk, knotted around our feet.
do you remember that? the fan’s buttery whir, the screen
exhaling its pixel glow while we typed to each other from
four inches apart, earbuds splitting one song between us.
god, they were so tangled—the rubber lined ones
hoarding earwax, secrets, they tugged and caught
impish phrases swapped on laggy desktop calls, our voices
jittering like cicadas against the plastic mic grill.
kids now won’t understand what that click was like, i swear
light shifted the moment the plugs aligned, a small spark sending
minute currents pressing inward and tracing
narrow seams of heat as they bloomed where the metal met metal. remember?
only then did the static settle into a low buzz in our brains.
pretty soon we had bluetooth, though, and in the room
quiet spread thickly across the walls
rising and falling like a lung set loose from its body.
soon everything would move that way. weightless, instant and
to touch nothing became the rule, whooshing cleanly over our bent knees, untethered currents skimming overhead, quick as breath, wires splitting infinite.
video is so crisp now,
washes the screen into one mean plane.
xeric shadows thinning to husks under that overbright sheen,
you now watch them slide down, smooth as rain on glass,
zero softness left for anything that moves slower than its light.
narratives in movement
a story begins like this:
rhythm heard // light shifts
in the smallest fault-lines // blink
a lip pursing in secrecy // room stills
the wrist circling an invisible ache.
minor tremors,
lanterns unsaid, // faint settling in the walls
lighting the corridors of what i once was. // air thins
in painting,
color rushed toward me,
thick strokes leaning into each other // green catching sun
textures rising as if the canvas breathed.
i followed the motion without knowing,
drawn into the bright turbulence // a car passing
that broke at its edges
into a startling black. // skin wet
in flicker,
a flame leaned, red supplicant, // candle lit
its body thinning as it reached.
i watched the gesture hold,
a brightness balancing on breath. // cool steela small persistence
held in motion. // incense, pungent
in spinning
of a coin gleam edged
first spherical, then // table cool beneath hand
tumbling violently, tighter, close,
heads then tails,
to a quiet collapse. // glass grated ear
i only remember
the after motion,
the slight rise of something returning, // pulse steadies
tide surfacing
in its own time. // page lifts
memory keeps dancing. // floor slick
it loops, circles, braids itself
brushing
past selves turning // breath blown upward
a song inherited
into heartbeats, thunderous. // noise dimming
sometimes i ask for calm, // a blink
for held like glass, for a single second uncreased.
but even stillness
shivers, // planted foot
a frozen dancer
waiting to continue.
so i let the movements write me.
let them spiral,
tilt, return.
their brief geometries // crumpled paper
shaping a map beneath my ribs.
not anchors,
but wind
they carry me forward, // weight leaning
elsewhere,
and in the widening hush // brightly lit
between gesture and gesture,
i gather. in the end, // deeply heaved
understand:
the story was never written // held in drift
it was moved,
as am i // body aligning
still in motion. // briefly gorgeous
the color of air
once, you told me you could see the color of air. smiling, i pretended it made sense, and asked
how long you’d been able to. with a shrug, your gaze blurred, slipped into the space before me,
then twinkled back into i, glass.
***
you hold a cracked bowl to your chest, feeling for the sound of your heartbeat. touch the fracture
with a tenderness reserved for things only half-lost, thumb circling the break, calling an old
memory forward.
***
i saw you moving through rooms as if tuning them: a chair tucked in gently, a lamp tilted to cast
upon me softer light. after that, it’s only the faint rearranging of space. air easing its posture, and i
fall into a softer register in your wind.
***
we watched dust float in a shaft of late light, sun-thrown bar. you followed its drift with stillness,
while I tried to see whatever held your attention. the specks flickered, bright then gone, and
though i caught nothing of their signal, i felt the room pause and wait for understanding.
***
when silence beaded on the table like condensation, born of lingering heat, i dragged my finger
through the droplets and watched them split, then rise, my lungs following as they filled with the
wet, heavy air. breath in suspension, a surrender before the release, then warmth lifting toward a
vapored you.
***
all of it unspoken, all of it ordinary. small calibrations, faint as breath on glass, the ones that teach
you where to stand. i understood then, saw your laughter a soft yellow, floating away in
oscillations.